lately i've been thinking alot about those three topics up there.
Religion. first of all im not a religious person. but i like the idea of haveing something in that area of my life. i dislike the idea of "God" be cause God has a name and many times in many religions a face. rather i believe in a force, one that is...everything. it has no face, no name and its not some kind of being that can manipulate the world. its more like, that this force is everyone, everything. that praying to this force you are prayig to the humanity and life and death in the world and if you are judged by it it is the people surrounding you. but hmmm i geuss i dont like the word judgeing. i do think humans should need a diety to do good. i mean if you base your actions on that, on sins and things, when you you have a pressiure on you, however small, telling you that this will please God and this wont then youre not living in honest. dont get me wrong i throughly believe in morality but i belive in it in the sense that you are living your life for everyone around you instead of being good to others for a god. and i know im being selfish now. becasue people dont do that, do good just for god. i thouroughly understand that but its just the bassis that i believe in : you dont need a god to do good. hmm sorry its hard to explane. so, like i was saying before i rambled off like that.
ive been thinking about, if i took up a religion what would it be. well it comes down to Buddhism and Wiccanism. hah and im sure youre like yikes inkiling wiccanism? and i tell you "why yes". but first ill start with buddhism. i think this is an absolutely beautiful religion. it embodies pretty much all my beliefes. one thing i dont like about it is that it holds human life higher than any other. if youre reincarnated as a bug then youve been down graded. i dont think thats fare. i think all life is equal. we all live off of eachother and even though some lives are short and some are long doesnt mean that anyone creature is more important. humans were just lucky enough to resive thumbs. haha. and thats all i have to say about it. short huh? thats cause i think pretty highlky of buddhism. now on to wiccanism. oy where to start. ok well first of all i know that to many people think that wiccanism is a satan worshiping cult creep religion. NO. WRONG. ALL OF IT. wiccanism is really beautiful. it has a force like i believe in and focuses on the beauty of life. nature. which i think is a nice way to think. i simple base. i used to want to be wiccan but then it kind of died off. i dont know why. two things i dont like about this religion though. first i dont like its afterlife. continual recarnation. never ending. meh not for me. i also dont like the fact that it has become somewhat of a poser religion. i feel kind of smothered by the fact that a goth culture (highschool students. *sigh* will we ever learn?) has sprung out of it. it seems a sad thing that such a beautiful religion should, in some cases, become identity rather then a beleife. so there.
theres my thoughts on that. mostly summed up as...what?
now on to Love.
all im going to say about love is that ive been wishing for it. i want to have someone to love apart from my friends and family. i was talking to melanie about this the other day and she said something like "theres a place in you for friends and family, which we have filled, but theres also a place for a love of your own." in me that place is emnty. theres a big gapping hole in my heart. and i dont know why. but its been hurting lately. alot.
so theres my first real post. me rambling on about nothing. waste of time huh. haha sorry.
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Caroline, first of all, YOU ARE NOT A WASTE OF TIME. Please stop thinking this. I am trying to get out of the self-deprecating hole I've dug for myself, and it hurts that someone as beautiful and incredible as you are inside thinks so little of herself.
Now, onto your post. First of all, I think that religion is, in ways, somewhat false. I think it's based off of some different things:
1) need for stability
2) the need for connection to something, like GOd
3) to repeat something again and again and again
Now, all three are flawed. I understand where they come from, but they are flawed and come from an innate human tendency for flaw.
Stability does not exist. There, I said it. We seem to want it, seem to want things like safety, security, but of course, as Remy wisely says in Ratatouille, "Change is nature." Show me one instance where something in this world is entirely stable. EVERYTHING changes. That's the only constant. Therefore, a need for stability really doesn't do well. That ties in also to the repetition of things. A good example is that you repeat life. You are reincarnated or you have an eternal afterlife in most religions. Then there's things like church every Sunday, that's a repetition. Religious traditions are a big part of this. Religion is very slow to change, if at all. That is a problem. It is not adaptable to the world, therefore causing countless problems, one of which is mindless killing.
Need for connection, that's a bit deeper. We all do want some connection, and we made this idea of God so we could think, all right, no one understands me, but GOD does! He knows everything! This is flawed in that...well, ok, I don't need to go into that. :) I think that why I think God is flawed will go on and on forever, and I will probably get too impassioned, tee hee!
Concerning what religion to pick, my opinion is honestly that you pick what makes the most sense, what works best for you, and then you change it to work for you. This is what I did with Hinduism. I was born a Hindu and still am a Hindu. It's just that I decided to use the values that work for me, and change the ones that didn't. I didn't just accept it all in, I changed it. I don't believe in God, I worked that into my personal Hinduism. But I am still vegetarian, and I still think that life should be respected. And right there, that's the problem with Buddhism. It's that it kept the Hindu belief that your form in the next life depends on karma, and that some forms of life are better than others. I disagree. I don't think any one form is better than the other. I do, however, have specific vendettas against our own species. We are the only ones who go around destroying each other, other animals, and the rest of the planet. It's really unfair. And it's unfair that we should be considered the best, you're right. Wiccanism, I don't have a problem at all with you considering it. You're right, though, it has become a cult, which does taint it a lot. Existentialism, which I practice, is usually misconstrued as emo. That's a problem. Reincarnation and afterlife are both lame. They are both ideas specifically formulated to make people work hard and do good things in this life. That's what I think at least, what you make of it is your own. :)
Love: we all do. I think that so long as I have people whom I love, and I think some of them care about me, I'm doing fine. I do want actual love, however, but somehow that I'll find it is doubtful. I hope you do, Caroline.
ya exactly. i forgot to say in my post exactly what you said. that religion is just made to feel like we're not alone. same with after life. its a grim thought that when we die we dont exist anymore. that theres nothing left for us. of course if you dont exist then you could care less right? beh. well anyway thanks so much comment. see ya^^
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